Unplanned Journey

I found myself unable to focus
on anything other than you
as the Doctor spoke of an unplanned journey
one we did not choose

Filtered light shining through the blinds
laid gently upon your shoulders
along with the weight of the whole wide world
crushing you like a ton of boulders

The Doctor spoke of cancer and chemo
but my mind just drifted away
unable to grasp or understand
exactly what he had to say

All I could see was my loving husband
fighting back a river of tears
Like a frightened child needing his Mother
to calm a mountain of fears

Eve of Chemo

It is the eve of Chemo
not knowing what will be
I'm holding onto him
and he's hanging close to me

We're at a point in life
where we have never been
emotions are running high
for us and all of our friends

Cancer is a scary word
one hopes to never hear
when it's inside one you love
you're filled with instant fear

I don't know what we face
with this sickness in his blood
but I do know I will fight
with the one I've always loved

İEileen Breedlove
November, 2003